i remember reading fairy tales when i was young... how at the end of the fairy tale when the princess and her prince got married or whatever, the whole kingdom would celebrate and stuff and yet this current blog entry is not about ditsy princesses or princes who dress rather like gay men but its about those rare people in the kingdom who go- so what? the dudes got married? will that stop world hunger? yeah I'm proudly one of THOSE people.
a little clarification here, I'm not indifferent cause I'm trying to be cool or another cliche, i really and honestly do not get the point of it. No matter how hard i try to find that one itsy bitsy tiny feeling of joy and celebration, this tiny and tired voice comes up- quit trying so hard... you don't give a shit. See right now the college fest is going on and everyone around seems to have given their sense of exhaustion a vacation. i don't think i've ever seen people work this hard since the russians during world war 2 when the germans were trying to kick their ass. no really. in fact these people seem even more driven than the russians. and for what exactly? its not like they're trying to prevent some lunatic from taking over the world or anything. and yet... i've seen miracles happen suring this time. this fest seems to have driven even the laziest and most apathetic people in this college into high gear spirit and yet i'm indifferent for some barking mad reason that even i don't know =S.
So when the prince and the princess get married, and all the people are acting like drunk pirates, there will be some of us who go- these people are going to squander money like water for a woman who can't quite seem to get herself out of danger by herself and some guy who loves to wear tights... when half the world's population is starving out there... of course these people are ignored and of course they're right... but does anyone care? Not really.... we're the crazy people who aren't true to our alma mater for not giving a freaking shit... n yet i still don't give a damn.. no matter how hard they try to "recruit" me...
Sunday, July 26, 2009
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
i guess you'd do it too if you were her...
She was standing there.... 8 floors between her and the concrete ground.
the wind was whipping her hair, at some point it seemed to sting her face a bit or maybe they were her tears...
She really didn't know anymore, didn't care... liar.. she did... after what she saw.... all that hurt she was feeling just then.... she loved them both so much... so much that she could die for them or kill... AND THIS IS WHAT THEY HAD TO SHOW FOR IT????
That fucking bitch.... i can't believe that slut...
the anger was surging through her veins... she felt like she could erupt
AND HIM.... yesterday was our one month anniversary.... how the fuck could he do this to me today???
She looked down. She needed to get away from it all... from THEM.... she felt so sick she thought she was going to hurl at any point. She still didn't get it. Everything was going fine. She was seeing one of the most popular boys in college- captain of the football team, A grade student and now he was sure to be student president... and its not like she was invisible or something. She was always one of the pretty girls. She had been asked out by a lot of boys but had always turned them down hoping that HE might ask her out and HE DID. she was so happy that day. her best friend was the first to know...
That two faced slut.... i bet she wanted him all along... i bet he wanted her... and I was just some tool in the whole process.... FUCK THEM BOTH....
She had invited them over for lunch today. The three of them were joking and laughing about all the times when one of them did something stupid. She remembered that she had forgotten to get the beer and so had to rush to the liquor store. halfway down the stairs she remembered she had forgotten her wallet and so went back upstairs to get it.
I can't believe those sick bastards... if they wanted each other SO FREAKING MUCH... why make me the stupid moron... GOD! i need to throw up....
The whole scene kept repeating in her head.... the two of them locked in each other... n their tongues....
She slid down to the floor.... her heart really felt like heavy concrete in her chest....
the whole conversation seemed to repeat in front of her
"What the fuck is this???"... she stood there in shock
"Lucy... don't be mad... calm down.. we were gonna tell u babe.. i swear", her boyfriend, his gorgeous face looking straight at her, his lips stained by her best friends lipgloss..... yuck....
"Lucy i'm so sorry, are you ok? You have to believe that this was unintentional.... ",that stupid bitch was crying... FOR WHAT?
She didn't say anything..just turned around and now here she was... on the roof of her building...
she turned around.. someone had followed her there.... it was HIM
"Luce? You ok?"
"What the heck do you want? I want you both to get the fuck out of my house"
"Look Luce, i know that this is all really freaky. But u gotta understand... "
She was calming down now... "you're right... if you two wanna be together so much then i guess i shouldn't be a bitch about it"
He looked at her a bit shocked... not quite expecting such an easy submission... then he smiled...those beautiful teeth (that she wanted to break at that point) .... and held out his arms to hug her...
She came tightly embraced him... "So this is goodbye..."
"We'll still be friends Luce.... good friends"
"You'd need to be alive for that Will...."
And then she gave him one mighty shove.... she guessed he had screamed... but all she could see at that point was the shocked and bewildered look on his face and the only sound she could hear was the her laughter ..... that felt sooooooooo good.....
Now it was time to go give her best wishes to her friend...after a quick visit to her daddy's room to get his gun of course....
the wind was whipping her hair, at some point it seemed to sting her face a bit or maybe they were her tears...
She really didn't know anymore, didn't care... liar.. she did... after what she saw.... all that hurt she was feeling just then.... she loved them both so much... so much that she could die for them or kill... AND THIS IS WHAT THEY HAD TO SHOW FOR IT????
That fucking bitch.... i can't believe that slut...
the anger was surging through her veins... she felt like she could erupt
AND HIM.... yesterday was our one month anniversary.... how the fuck could he do this to me today???
She looked down. She needed to get away from it all... from THEM.... she felt so sick she thought she was going to hurl at any point. She still didn't get it. Everything was going fine. She was seeing one of the most popular boys in college- captain of the football team, A grade student and now he was sure to be student president... and its not like she was invisible or something. She was always one of the pretty girls. She had been asked out by a lot of boys but had always turned them down hoping that HE might ask her out and HE DID. she was so happy that day. her best friend was the first to know...
That two faced slut.... i bet she wanted him all along... i bet he wanted her... and I was just some tool in the whole process.... FUCK THEM BOTH....
She had invited them over for lunch today. The three of them were joking and laughing about all the times when one of them did something stupid. She remembered that she had forgotten to get the beer and so had to rush to the liquor store. halfway down the stairs she remembered she had forgotten her wallet and so went back upstairs to get it.
I can't believe those sick bastards... if they wanted each other SO FREAKING MUCH... why make me the stupid moron... GOD! i need to throw up....
The whole scene kept repeating in her head.... the two of them locked in each other... n their tongues....
She slid down to the floor.... her heart really felt like heavy concrete in her chest....
the whole conversation seemed to repeat in front of her
"What the fuck is this???"... she stood there in shock
"Lucy... don't be mad... calm down.. we were gonna tell u babe.. i swear", her boyfriend, his gorgeous face looking straight at her, his lips stained by her best friends lipgloss..... yuck....
"Lucy i'm so sorry, are you ok? You have to believe that this was unintentional.... ",that stupid bitch was crying... FOR WHAT?
She didn't say anything..just turned around and now here she was... on the roof of her building...
she turned around.. someone had followed her there.... it was HIM
"Luce? You ok?"
"What the heck do you want? I want you both to get the fuck out of my house"
"Look Luce, i know that this is all really freaky. But u gotta understand... "
She was calming down now... "you're right... if you two wanna be together so much then i guess i shouldn't be a bitch about it"
He looked at her a bit shocked... not quite expecting such an easy submission... then he smiled...those beautiful teeth (that she wanted to break at that point) .... and held out his arms to hug her...
She came tightly embraced him... "So this is goodbye..."
"We'll still be friends Luce.... good friends"
"You'd need to be alive for that Will...."
And then she gave him one mighty shove.... she guessed he had screamed... but all she could see at that point was the shocked and bewildered look on his face and the only sound she could hear was the her laughter ..... that felt sooooooooo good.....
Now it was time to go give her best wishes to her friend...after a quick visit to her daddy's room to get his gun of course....
Thursday, January 29, 2009
things that kill...or atleast drive to the asylum...
College is frustrating.....understatement of the year i know... but its the first thing that's popped into my head in ages. hmmm...... i think I'll start with a topic now...i need something to do...tons to make fun off... POINT TO BE NOTED: these are just the insane ramblings of my mind..attach no seriousness to this whatsoever... all names have been changed to protect rather sad person's identity.... but who the hell am i kidding? if any of my friends are reading this...they are bound to know who the hell I'm going on about..cheerio dudies and welcome to the zone of complete lalaness.... muahahahaha.....haha....haha...ok stop....
inspiration is a killer... no i mean it...as i am writing this i am also rather ferociously banging my head on my desk cuz i have absolutely nothing to write about...first i don't have a blog yet have loads of crap to go on about...now i have a blog n I'm out of crap...haha..i just got the double meaning of that last sentence....OK back to seriousness.... no wait... I'm bored...BORED as hell.... ah well maybe I'll just write bout the random thoughts in my head... i got one!!!!!!!!!! no wait....that one would be incredibly inappropriate... I'm pretty sure i could get arrested...
15 minutes later...
JEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSHHHHHHHH.................................... let me add frustration to the first part..that's a killer as well.... i have no idea why but I'm feeling amazingly jumpy today... i mean heart rate out of control jumpy.... I guess its because of all these feelings just wind surfing through me... anger, jealousy, hurt, feeling ignored... yeah... I'm feeling like a bit of an attention seeker today dudies.... feelings are stupid yet they are completely incapable of getting rid off... yeah even for a robot like me...hard as i may try...I'm actually one of the most sensitive people alive... this is a bad thing...cuz i really can't take a joke unless someone is kind enough to tell me - its a joke you really can laugh luv... half of the utter crap that I get into with people is because of stupid inability to get this fact straight as to when they're serious and when they're merely pulling my leg.... but I think the one that's hitting me most hard right now..is loneliness... :( ..oh please do not get all that I'm feeling lonely in a single girl kind of way thought in your head.. I'm far too independent (read as stubborn headed) to admit that ....EVER! ...na na... I'm just feeling amazingly homesick...transition comes third... i have no clue if its Delhi or Calcutta i want to get back to... but one thing's for sure- I wish to be as far from Bombay as possible...don't get me wrong its a great city with great people...yeah I'm such a kiss ass.... but i feeling like getting away sometimes.... fine.. all the time.... i have my reasons to do so... alienation comes fourth... i guess i feel removed...so very removed from everything at this point...its not anybody's fault really...its just me...stupid thing that these feelings are..mine are clearly out of FREAKN CONTROL..... so now i guess after boring you all with my no sense at all blabber... i sign off listening to Roses- Poets of the fall ...damn kick ass band.. :P
inspiration is a killer... no i mean it...as i am writing this i am also rather ferociously banging my head on my desk cuz i have absolutely nothing to write about...first i don't have a blog yet have loads of crap to go on about...now i have a blog n I'm out of crap...haha..i just got the double meaning of that last sentence....OK back to seriousness.... no wait... I'm bored...BORED as hell.... ah well maybe I'll just write bout the random thoughts in my head... i got one!!!!!!!!!! no wait....that one would be incredibly inappropriate... I'm pretty sure i could get arrested...
15 minutes later...
JEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSHHHHHHHH.................................... let me add frustration to the first part..that's a killer as well.... i have no idea why but I'm feeling amazingly jumpy today... i mean heart rate out of control jumpy.... I guess its because of all these feelings just wind surfing through me... anger, jealousy, hurt, feeling ignored... yeah... I'm feeling like a bit of an attention seeker today dudies.... feelings are stupid yet they are completely incapable of getting rid off... yeah even for a robot like me...hard as i may try...I'm actually one of the most sensitive people alive... this is a bad thing...cuz i really can't take a joke unless someone is kind enough to tell me - its a joke you really can laugh luv... half of the utter crap that I get into with people is because of stupid inability to get this fact straight as to when they're serious and when they're merely pulling my leg.... but I think the one that's hitting me most hard right now..is loneliness... :( ..oh please do not get all that I'm feeling lonely in a single girl kind of way thought in your head.. I'm far too independent (read as stubborn headed) to admit that ....EVER! ...na na... I'm just feeling amazingly homesick...transition comes third... i have no clue if its Delhi or Calcutta i want to get back to... but one thing's for sure- I wish to be as far from Bombay as possible...don't get me wrong its a great city with great people...yeah I'm such a kiss ass.... but i feeling like getting away sometimes.... fine.. all the time.... i have my reasons to do so... alienation comes fourth... i guess i feel removed...so very removed from everything at this point...its not anybody's fault really...its just me...stupid thing that these feelings are..mine are clearly out of FREAKN CONTROL..... so now i guess after boring you all with my no sense at all blabber... i sign off listening to Roses- Poets of the fall ...damn kick ass band.. :P