College is frustrating.....understatement of the year i know... but its the first thing that's popped into my head in ages. hmmm...... i think I'll start with a topic now...i need something to do...tons to make fun off... POINT TO BE NOTED: these are just the insane ramblings of my mind..attach no seriousness to this whatsoever... all names have been changed to protect rather sad person's identity.... but who the hell am i kidding? if any of my friends are reading this...they are bound to know who the hell I'm going on about..cheerio dudies and welcome to the zone of complete lalaness.... muahahahaha.....haha....haha...ok stop....
inspiration is a killer... no i mean it...as i am writing this i am also rather ferociously banging my head on my desk cuz i have absolutely nothing to write about...first i don't have a blog yet have loads of crap to go on about...now i have a blog n I'm out of crap...haha..i just got the double meaning of that last sentence....OK back to seriousness.... no wait... I'm bored...BORED as hell.... ah well maybe I'll just write bout the random thoughts in my head... i got one!!!!!!!!!! no wait....that one would be incredibly inappropriate... I'm pretty sure i could get arrested...
15 minutes later...
JEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSHHHHHHHH.................................... let me add frustration to the first part..that's a killer as well.... i have no idea why but I'm feeling amazingly jumpy today... i mean heart rate out of control jumpy.... I guess its because of all these feelings just wind surfing through me... anger, jealousy, hurt, feeling ignored... yeah... I'm feeling like a bit of an attention seeker today dudies.... feelings are stupid yet they are completely incapable of getting rid off... yeah even for a robot like me...hard as i may try...I'm actually one of the most sensitive people alive... this is a bad thing...cuz i really can't take a joke unless someone is kind enough to tell me - its a joke you really can laugh luv... half of the utter crap that I get into with people is because of stupid inability to get this fact straight as to when they're serious and when they're merely pulling my leg.... but I think the one that's hitting me most hard right now..is loneliness... :( ..oh please do not get all that I'm feeling lonely in a single girl kind of way thought in your head.. I'm far too independent (read as stubborn headed) to admit that ....EVER! ...na na... I'm just feeling amazingly homesick...transition comes third... i have no clue if its Delhi or Calcutta i want to get back to... but one thing's for sure- I wish to be as far from Bombay as possible...don't get me wrong its a great city with great people...yeah I'm such a kiss ass.... but i feeling like getting away sometimes.... fine.. all the time.... i have my reasons to do so... alienation comes fourth... i guess i feel removed...so very removed from everything at this point...its not anybody's fault really...its just me...stupid thing that these feelings are..mine are clearly out of FREAKN CONTROL..... so now i guess after boring you all with my no sense at all blabber... i sign off listening to Roses- Poets of the fall ...damn kick ass band.. :P